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  “Will…Oh my God…oh God, I’m going to come again. Will!”

  I couldn’t believe how I was calling out his name over and over, but I couldn’t help it. I would forever be addicted to this feeling. The most amazing orgasm hit me so hard and so fast that I almost couldn’t take it. It felt like it was going on forever. I squeezed down on Will’s fingers as he moved them in and out while he continued to suck on my nipple. When he gently bit down on it, I lost it.

  “Fuck, Lex. I can’t wait any longer.”

  I shook my head quickly to clear my thoughts. I’d never in my life felt so amazing. I looked at Will as he moved between my legs. He kissed my stomach, and then he moved up to one nipple and then the next. I tried to talk, but I couldn’t. I was lost in ecstasy.

  When his lips reached my neck, he said, “I love you, Lex.”

  “I…love…you.”

  “I want you so badly, sweetheart.”

  “Will, I want you, too.”

  Then, I felt him at my entrance, and I tensed up.

  Will moved his lips up to my ear. His hot breath on my body was pushing me back to the edge of another orgasm.

  How? How does he do this to me?

  “Lex…baby…relax.”

  I closed my eyes and completely relaxed. I knew Will would never do anything to hurt me. I opened my eyes, and Will stopped moving at the same time. He pulled back and looked into my eyes.

  “Fuck! The condom!” He jumped up, quickly grabbed the box, and ripped it open.

  I couldn’t help but giggle at how fast he was moving. I smiled, knowing that we had realized it at the same time. I watched his shaking hands as he rolled the condom onto his shaft. I licked my lips and dreamed of the day I could take him with my mouth.

  Will quickly moved back to where he was and smiled at me. He barely pushed against my entrance as he leaned down and kissed me. The kiss was utterly romantic and sweet.

  “Lex…I’ll love you forever.”

  My eyes were burning from the tears I was attempting to hold back as he began moving into me. I wasn’t sure if it was from the sweet words he’d whispered to me or from the pain of him stretching my body to fit him.

  “I’m going to make you mine forever, Lex. Mine. Forever.”

  “Yes…” A sob escaped my throat.

  Will stopped moving, but I opened my legs more and grabbed him to pull him closer.

  “Don’t…please don’t stop.”

  Will pulled back and looked at me. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

  “Will…I need to feel you inside me. Please.”

  He buried his face in my neck as he began pushing in. I wasn’t sure if him going so slow was making it worse or not. He pushed in and then pulled out some. He moved in more and let out a long, soft moan.

  “Oh…God, you feel so good,” he whispered against my neck.

  I wrapped my legs around him and pulled him to me. It was hurting like a bitch, and I closed my eyes tightly. “How much more?”

  “I’m almost all the way in.”

  “Will…just do it…please,” I said as I let out a whimper.

  When he pulled out and pushed in again, something happened. It felt like heaven and hell at the same time.

  “Ah…shit…Lex. I’m all the way in.”

  When he looked at me, he sucked in a breath of air. He reached up with his thumb and gently wiped my tears away. “Lex, you’ll never know how much this moment means to me.”

  I started crying more.

  Will stopped moving. “Talk to me, Lex. Please tell me I’m not hurting you.”

  I shook my head. “Will…I love you so much. Please don’t stop.”

  He slowly pulled out some and began moving. At first, the pain was almost too much, but the more he moved, the more incredible it felt.

  I arched my back. I needed him deeper in me. I needed more of him. I squeezed my legs around him, and he let out a moan.

  “It feels so amazing…Will…I love you. Oh God. Will…don’t stop.”

  I couldn’t believe it. I swore I could feel the buildup in my toes, and as it traveled up my body, it hit my core so hard that I let out a scream.

  “I’m coming, Will! Jesus…oh God, I’m coming.”

  I could feel him getting bigger inside me, and I squeezed down around him.

  “Lex…baby, I’m gonna come. Lex.”

  Will pushed in deep and hard as he began kissing me, and we both came together for the first time as one.

  Will had his arms wrapped around me as he held me while our breathing slowed down. “Are you okay, Lex?”

  I smiled. “I’m more than okay. I’ve never felt so wonderful in my life.” I rolled over and faced him.

  He was smiling as he ran his finger down the side of my face. “I hope it was special for you.”

  My heart slammed in my chest, and I had such an urge to crawl on top of him. “I don’t think you could have possibly made it any more special, Will. It was perfect, beyond perfect.”

  “Did I hurt you at all?”

  My heart melted at how much Will cared about me. “No.” I ran my tongue across my top teeth as I pushed him onto his back. I crawled on top of him. “Matter of fact, I think I’m ready for some more.”

  My core clenched when I felt his hard on growing beneath me. I loved that I could turn him on so easily.

  “Lex…” Will whispered as he placed his hands on my hips to stop me from grinding against him. “Condom, baby.”

  I leaned over and reached for the box of condoms on the floor. I grabbed one, and then I grinned as a naughty thought entered my head. I moved off of him some and began stroking him.

  “Jesus, Lex.”

  I was hugging myself internally. I knew I had it in me. I just needed to be a bit more open to things. There were so many things I wanted to try with Will, and I was already wondering when and where we were going to make love after tonight.

  Will had his eyes closed, and I looked down at him. He was more than ready to go again. I ripped open the wrapper, and I was about to pull the condom out of it when I suddenly became very brave. Before he could stop me, I leaned over and quickly took him in my mouth. I began moving up and down his shaft with my hand following my movements.

  Will jumped and yelled out, “Holy fuck!”

  I smiled and then moaned. Will sat up, grabbed me, and pulled me off of him. He was breathing heavily, and I couldn’t help but smile.

  “My God, Lex…you can’t…you can’t do that. I almost came right on the spot in your mouth!”

  The idea made my insides tighten, and I instantly felt wetness between my legs. “I would have been okay with that.”

  Will’s face dropped, and he shook his head. “Wha-what?”

  I began chewing on my lower lip. What if Will doesn’t like the idea of me giving him a blow job? I quickly looked away. “I’m sorry I even tried.”

  I went to move away from him, but he grabbed my arm.

  “Lex, wait. I mean…I want you to do that.” He ran his hand through his hair and smiled at me. “I’ve woken up from dreams of you doing that. I just…I never want you to think you have to do something to make me happy.”

  “I know that, Will. I know you would never ask me to do something I didn’t want to do.”

  Will’s eyes lit up with something I’d never seen before. “Lex, do you want to be on top? Or do you want to do that?”

  Oh God. The idea of being on top of Will and being in control turned me on in more ways than I could count, but giving him something he’d dreamed of also turned me on.

  “What do you want me to do?” I asked.

  The crooked smile that spread across his face made my stomach take a hard dive south.

  “Honestly?”

  I nodded my head.

  “I want you to ride me.”

  Oh. My. God. If I’d thought I was turned-on before, his words had pushed me to the edge of an orgasm, and all he had done was say something to me.

  I slowly gri
nned as I placed my hands on his chest and pushed him back. When he lay back, I took out the condom and began to put it on.

  “How do I know if I’m putting it on right?” I intently watched what I was doing as I rolled the condom down his shaft. The whole time, my core was pulsing. “Will, am I doing it right?”

  I had it almost all the way on when I looked at Will. His mouth was slightly open, and his chest was heaving up and down. I smiled bigger and gave myself an internal fist pump.

  I looked down at it again and tried to think back to health class when we had practiced putting condoms on fake dicks. I was pretty sure I had put it on right. I moved and positioned myself above him. He had his eyes closed, but he placed his hands on my hips. When I moved down, his tip barely pushed in.

  He stopped me and opened his eyes. “Lex, this is gonna feel different. It might stretch you open more.”

  My sex was throbbing so badly, and I needed relief. I sank down on him and let out a gasp as I felt him filling me completely. Will sucked in a breath of air as I sat there and tried to get used to this new feeling. I threw my head back, and I wasn’t sure what had come over me, but I moved my hands up my body and began feeling my breasts.

  “Jesus…my God, Lex. I’ve never seen anything so damn sexy in my entire life.”

  I slowly began moving myself up and down just a bit. It felt so good. Something was hitting on the inside, and I swore I could feel another orgasm building already. I began to move faster. I moved my body up and down more as Will let out a long moan.

  He gripped my hips harder. “Lex…baby, that feels…I’m not going to last long, Lex.”

  Once I got past the stinging of being stretched out more, something inside me switched on. I needed it harder. I needed more. I placed my hands on his chest and began moving up and down, faster and harder.

  “Yeah…this feels…so good,” I said as I looked into Will’s eyes.

  “Lex…are you going to come? ’Cause I can’t hold off.”

  I could feel it. Oh God. I was so close. “Will…yeah…so…close!” I called out.

  Will reached down, and the moment he touched my clit, I began calling out his name. He sat up and wrapped his arms around me. I was hit by another orgasm before the first one even stopped. This one was much more intense, and I screamed out his name as he called out my name.

  “Lex…oh, Lex. I’m coming. Don’t stop.”

  I moved my body against him, rubbing that spot that was driving me so insane that I could hardly think. I’d never in my life had such an intense orgasm. I felt like I had left my body, and I was looking down at myself. The way I was calling out his name surprised myself, but it felt so amazing.

  When my orgasm finally subsided, I just sat there in Will’s arms with him still inside me. I didn’t want to move. I loved the feeling of being one with him. He held on to me tightly, and I could feel him twitching inside me. I wondered how many times he would be able to do this.

  “Lex…I never imagined it would be like this.”

  I pulled back and smiled. “Me either.”

  I glanced at the clock. I pushed Will back and jumped out of the bed. “Oh my God, it’s after midnight. What if Colt gets home before me? He has no idea where I am, and everyone is at Luke’s.”

  I quickly ran into Will’s bathroom and began cleaning myself off. When I ran back into his room, he was already dressed in his jeans, and he was pulling his T-shirt on. He had the goofiest grin on his face, and my heart swelled up, knowing that he was happy because of what we had just shared.

  I grabbed my panties and pulled them on. Then, I dropped to the floor to find my bra. “There you are!” I put my bra on, and then I slid on my shirt and jeans. I pulled on my boots and looked at myself in the mirror.

  Do I still look like a virgin? Will anyone be able to tell? I placed my hands on my face. I was flush, but maybe that was from running around.

  In the mirror, I saw Will pulling the sheets off his bed, and I turned around. “What are you doing? We have to go!”

  Will looked at me and then down to the sheets.

  When I saw the blood, my hand slapped over my mouth. “Oh no. What’s your mom gonna think? Will! Oh no!”

  He shook his head and gave me the sweetest smile. “Don’t worry, Lex. A few weeks back, I bought more sheets when I found out they were going out of town. Just in case we…well, you know.”

  I tilted my head and gave him a questioning look. “You bought extra sheets?”

  He shrugged his shoulders. “Yeah. I mean, I knew I could wash these, but I wasn’t sure, so I thought it would be better to just throw them out and put new sheets on.”

  I put my finger up to my mouth and gently bit down on it. Grace had said nothing turned a guy on more than biting on your finger or licking your lips. There went that look in Will’s eyes.

  Yep. There went that pulsing in my core.

  Will shook his head quickly. “No. We can’t, Lex. Come on. Help me with these, so I can get you home.”

  I helped Will put the new sheets on. He balled up the old ones and carried them down into the kitchen. He pulled out a garbage bag and placed the sheets in it.

  Then, he put it in the trash compactor. “I’ll take this out now.”

  I sat down at the kitchen island and texted Colt.

  Me: Where are you?

  Colt: Watching TV at Luke’s. Where the fuck are you?

  Me: At Will’s.

  Colt: Are you okay?

  Me: Of course I am. When are you going home? If Dad or Mom ask, I’ve been with y’all.

  Colt: Alex, please tell me you wanted this.

  Me: Colt, I love him, and yes, I wanted it more than anything.

  Colt: You know I want to pound his ass right now.

  Me: I love you for that.

  Colt: Luke is gonna freak, Alex.

  Me: It’s none of his business.

  I glanced up and noticed Will watching me. “Colt knows.”

  Will closed his eyes and pushed his hands through his hair. “Ah hell.”

  I let out a giggle and then quickly looked at the back door when I heard it opening. I snapped my head back at Will, who was looking at the door in horror.

  When the door opened, Josh and Heather walked in.

  Heather stopped and looked at me. She smiled. “Alex, darling.”

  Josh stopped and glanced over to Will before turning and looking at me. He tilted his head a bit as he looked at me, then back at Will, and then back to me again. He smiled sweetly, but then he slowly turned to face Will. “Will, it’s pretty late, and I’m sure Alex needs to be heading home.”

  Will nodded his head and grabbed his keys from the island. I jumped off the stool and instantly felt sore. I was pretty sure I’d played it off, but with the way Heather was staring at me, I knew I had done a piss-poor job of it.

  I started to walk by when Heather reached for my hand. I stopped and turned to face her.

  Her eyes softened, and she smiled at me. “Will, wait for Alex out by your truck, please.”

  Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit.

  I glanced at Lex and gave her a small smile. Then, I headed out the door, and my father followed me. I walked up to my truck and opened the door, only to have him push it shut.

  “You want to tell me what in the hell you were thinking?”

  I’d never lied to my father, not once, and I wasn’t about to start now.

  I slowly turned and leaned up against my truck. I looked him in the eyes. “I love her, Dad. It was something we both wanted.”

  His whole body slumped, and he let out a sigh as he shook his head. “Her father would break you in two if he knew what happened tonight.”

  I pushed off my truck. “You’re not going to tell him, Dad, are you?”

  He just looked at me. “I ought to. In my house, Will? My. House.”

  “Dad, I didn’t want her first time to be in my truck or some damn barn. I wanted to at least make it special and have her feel comfortable.”
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  I saw a small smile play across his face.

  He quickly looked away. “At least we taught you something right.”

  I knew what I was about to do was a low blow, but I was going for it anyway. “Did you and Mom wait, Dad?”

  He spun around and glared at me. “Excuse me?”

  “Did you wait, Dad? I’m just asking a simple question. Did you wait until you were married or until you found Mom? I love Lex. I saved myself for her, Dad. We both wanted this.”

  His mouth opened slightly. “You…you’ve never had sex before?”

  I shook my head. “No. I told you, I love her and wanted my first time to be with her. I gave her the promise ring Granddad made. I gave it to her before we even did anything.”

  My father slowly nodded his head and let out a long breath. “To answer your question, no, I didn’t wait. As a matter of fact, I was a bit of a player before I met your mother.”

  I pulled my head back. “Really?”

  He let out a gruff laugh. “Yeah. I have many regrets, Will. I was foolish and disrespectful to many women. I don’t want you to follow in my footsteps.”

  I stood there in shock as I took in what my father had said. He always pushed me to be a gentleman and to treat women with the highest respect. I guessed he’d learned from his mistakes, and he didn’t want me to make the same.

  “I’m sorry if I disrespected you and Mom by bringing Lex here tonight.”

  My father walked up to me and put his hand on my shoulder. “William, I’m not going to say I’m happy about this, but there is one thing I’m happy about.”

  “What’s that?” I asked.

  “I’m happy and damn proud of you for taking Alex’s feelings into consideration in all of this. I’m not going to share this with Gunner because, honestly, I’d like to see you have a go at this life.”

  I let out a chuckle.

  My father raised his eyebrow at me. “I’m being serious.”

  I nodded my head. “I know you are, sir. Nervous laugh, I guess.”

  “Did you use protection?”

  “Yes, sir. I would never do that to Lex.”

  His face relaxed, and he nodded his head. “Always, and I mean always, use protection in some form. Please.”